Pregnancy Fears & Worries

It's getting closer to Baby Girl's due date and I have started freaking out about everything. So much has been running through my head and I feel like I have so much to do and haven't even started on anything.

Here are some of the fears and current things bothering me right now:

• I'm freaking out that we don't have a set apartment unit until early March
• We can't start on her room, or set up her crib until we move into our new apartment.
• I haven't packed my hospital bag, and don't even know what to take or where to begin for that matter!
• Being home alone with baby girl after we leave the hospital (All my family is in San Antonio and R hasn't been at his job for a year until June so he might not be able to take that many days off right away.)
• Labor & Delivery!!! I'm hoping to try and have her naturally without any medication  and I fear that I won't be able to do it.  
• I'm planning on working up until I can't anymore, and I fear that my water might break while at work. 
• Not being able to breastfeed
• Lexi not getting along with the baby once we bring her home
• Of course the biggest fear, will she be healthy? 

I'm nervous, happy, excited, and fearful. I know every new mom probably freaks out about the same things and its typical. I'm sure my "mommy instincts" will kick in when she arrives and all these fears will not matter when I see her face. I think not being able to set up her nursery now is what is really bothering me. I just want to be able to start washing her clothes and setting stuff up after the baby shower, but unfortunately we can't do that till we move. Another thing that has been stuck in my head is packing the hospital bag. I'm planning on going to Target soon and shopping for what I need to take and have a bag packed. 

What did you fear when pregnant? When did you pack your hospital bag?

Hormonal Rollercoaster

Thursday was one of those days that I don't understand how R puts up with these crazy hormones of mine. 

I'm perfectly fine one day, and then boom bring on the waterfall! I start tearing up when he ask me something and snap back at him with an attitude. Oops, I really don't mean it. We have had some problems with an apartment that we were looking into. We put money down and they ended up letting the tenant that was there cancel their 60 day notice and put us on a waiting list. We could be on the waiting list for a while, until the unit size we want becomes available. I was so ticked off, and overwhelmed when we went up there to talk to them because they wanted to put us into something smaller and for that price I could get an extra bedroom. I was just so frustrated that we got screwed over.They really weren't saying much and not willing to work something out with us. R asked what I wanted to do and I told him we had to discuss everything. 

So we decide to sit in the waiting area, tears all of a sudden started coming out and R asked if I was ok. After that, it all went downhill. I could not stop the tears from gushing out. He let me calm down, and I was better. I just didn't want to talk with anyone about the apartment issue. A couple minutes later my sister called my and bam.... more tears started flowing. I was getting so overwhelmed with the dates they were giving us to move in because it was the end of March or the beginning of April and I wanted to be settled and moved in before Baby Girl arrives. It was just so stressful, and of course the hormones didn't help. 

Once we got home, I laid in bed and tears were still coming out every now and then for no reason or when R would ask me something I would start crying. I stayed in bed for a while and eventually got up and all was ok again. This is what I have to say to these raging hormones....

 Dear Hormones:
Their are times you don't affect me, and when you do come around I'm one emotional wreck. You were good to me in the beginning of my pregnancy and I really wish we could go back to that status soon. You make me feel bad for treating R ugly at times, even though I don't mean a thing when I am ugly. But you are seriously killing me and him. I'm glad he understands how you affect my pregnancy and that he is supportive. But all I ask is that you ease up on me in the next couple of week, Pretty Please!! :)

xoxo Rochelle 

Did you ever have a hormonal roller coaster? How did you handle it? 

29 Week Bump Update

How far along? 29 weeks

Total weight gain:  12 lbs so far

Maternity clothes? 80% of the time! I would rather wear tights all day and a comfy pre-pregnancy or maternity shirt rather than my jeans.

Stretch marks? The girls up top have one on each 

Sleep: It has been hard for me to get comfortable, and once I’m out I wake up again around 5am to use the restroom and have a burst of energy and can’t seem to go back to bed.

Best moment this week: Just feeling baby girl have gymnastics class in my tummy! Every time she moves, I always stop and stare at my stomach. It still amazes me that I’m caring our baby.

Miss Anything? Not really! 

Movement:  Still quite the dancer! She has been moving a lot while I’m working and when I get home she must rest because she’s not as active until its time for bed.  

Food cravings:  Still Fruit, fish, and sweet tea, and funfetti cupcakes

Anything making you queasy or sick:  Still the smell of popcorn at work…..YUCK!!! 

Gender: Baby Girl  

Labor Signs:  None yet, she still has 12 more weeks to go

Symptoms: Braxton hicks every now and then and my usual naps when I get home from work.  

Belly Button in or out? Its not fully an outtie, but it looks like it will eventually get there. 

Wedding Aggie ring on or off?  Aggie Ring still fits

Happy or Moody most of the time: Happy all the time! I must say, I have my moody/emotional days and I feel bad for Ryan for putting up with me. I’m just glad he knows I don’t mean it, and after I walk away and rest I’m back to normal.

Looking forward to: My baby shower in the next couple of weeks; packing/moving; finally setting up her nursery in the new apartment; and getting everything ready for her.

Excuse the horrible lighting, we noticed afterwards

Thoughts:

Baby girl has been pretty active recently, and after seeing her at our appointment, it makes me more excited that she will be here soon. I have so many things running through my mind all the time. From when to pack the hospital bag, to getting her nursery set up, delivering, and being a good mom. I’m so thankful for Ryan, he has put up with a lot this past week with all my crazy emotions. I wouldn’t have been able to get through everything with out his support. I’m looking forward to my family coming to Houston for the baby shower and then eventually moving and setting up her nursery. I love this little girl so much, words can’t not describe how I feel!